I have lost the will to blog.
In a short time, things have gone to hell. Really bad days, not so bad days, all in the shadow of depression. Lots of happenings in the personal field too. Finding old friends that were disappointed in me and me getting disappointed in others. Fixing things, fighting legal battles. Trying to be assertive and not lose my screws completely. I talked to Sally on the 28th and got my medication adjusted. She told me about this man with major depression who finally got sucessful with farmacotherapy, and continued to take the pills for almost 10 years. Life was perfect. However, it’s not a holiday to have to take several pills everyday just to keep your normal functioning. He decided 10 years was a lot, and probably his problem was in the past by now. He stopped.
Oh, and also, now I have a personality disorder as a side course to go with the depression which is the main one. I suspected it before but never took it seriously.
Yes, Avoidant Personality Disorder. It’s official now.