The days keep on going. I don’t feel depressed like before. But I don’t feel normal either. It’s this weird thing, slow, plain, and it doesn’t change. It could be nothing, but a mood like this has usually preceeded other, more disasterous ones.
And I’m starting to get terrified. I’m terrified of going back there. Everything has been so great. Can it just stay this way? To be happy when happy things happen, and sad when sad things happen, and stressed when stressing things happen. That’s the way normal brains are supposed to work.