Comments on: Note to Self and Altered Perceptions of Reality. http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/2008/05/10/note-to-self-and-altered-perceptions-of-reality/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 22:43:36 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 By: colin anson http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/2008/05/10/note-to-self-and-altered-perceptions-of-reality/#comment-2094 colin anson Fri, 10 Oct 2008 23:54:28 +0000 http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/?p=281#comment-2094 of all things the person closest to you can make the difference and chase much of the darkness turn to a lighter note. temporary but at least it helps the weight to be eased while you can function and perform until, the next wave that comes around unexpectedly. colin of all things the person closest to you can make the difference and chase much of the darkness turn to a lighter note. temporary but at least it helps the weight to be eased while you can function and perform until, the next wave that comes around unexpectedly.

colin

]]> By: crazyasuka http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/2008/05/10/note-to-self-and-altered-perceptions-of-reality/#comment-1406 crazyasuka Tue, 13 May 2008 01:16:32 +0000 http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/?p=281#comment-1406 You can't rely on your memory most of the times, because the memory tends to be corrupted too! Sometimes it's hard to just say that "it is important to remember...". It is important but might not be the most plausible thing to do when most of your brain is pointing you in the opposite direction. Hence the "external memory devices". You can’t rely on your memory most of the times, because the memory tends to be corrupted too! Sometimes it’s hard to just say that “it is important to remember…”. It is important but might not be the most plausible thing to do when most of your brain is pointing you in the opposite direction.

Hence the “external memory devices”.

]]> By: la http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/2008/05/10/note-to-self-and-altered-perceptions-of-reality/#comment-1404 la Tue, 13 May 2008 01:03:15 +0000 http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/?p=281#comment-1404 I think this is one of the most important things to realise - that there *is* something wrong with you. That may sound a very negative and defeatist attitude to some ... but when you find yourself thinking you're weak and stupid it helps a lot to remember that these thoughts are part of your illness, they aren't who you are. I think this is one of the most important things to realise – that there *is* something wrong with you. That may sound a very negative and defeatist attitude to some … but when you find yourself thinking you’re weak and stupid it helps a lot to remember that these thoughts are part of your illness, they aren’t who you are.

]]> By: crazyasuka http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/2008/05/10/note-to-self-and-altered-perceptions-of-reality/#comment-1394 crazyasuka Mon, 12 May 2008 21:38:11 +0000 http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/?p=281#comment-1394 I think it is a huge thing for me if something that I wrote made it better for you. This is the final kick I needed to mark today as a Good Day. Thank you. Everything about today has been good. :) I think something little that plays the right unknown switches inside our minds can do a great change. Today I woke up, I was sort of awake, but I blamed the huge amount of sleep I had gotten. I read a blog post by Seaneen (The Secret Life...). Reading it made me smile, but it was nothing huge. A while later I noticed everything had a different look. I connected to people, I was able to help somebody, and I found many bad things but nothing of that overwhelmed me. I liked my music and the world just has a nice light... Could have been the meds, and could have been that + the little invisible switches of the strange mental world we've yet to completely figure out. <blockquote>I’m worried about how quickly I lose the ability to connect with people</blockquote> I think it is a plus that you worry about it. It shows that you're at least not antisocial. :) You just have to figure out a way to keep your ability switched on "most of the time" instead of "almost never". I could work on that myself too. <blockquote>(Gladiators, Old men, libraries, Gym routines….weird)</blockquote> Haha, that made me giggle... I can picture images in my mind so quickly... Ehh. I think it is a huge thing for me if something that I wrote made it better for you. This is the final kick I needed to mark today as a Good Day. Thank you.

Everything about today has been good. :)

I think something little that plays the right unknown switches inside our minds can do a great change. Today I woke up, I was sort of awake, but I blamed the huge amount of sleep I had gotten. I read a blog post by Seaneen (The Secret Life…). Reading it made me smile, but it was nothing huge. A while later I noticed everything had a different look. I connected to people, I was able to help somebody, and I found many bad things but nothing of that overwhelmed me. I liked my music and the world just has a nice light…

Could have been the meds, and could have been that + the little invisible switches of the strange mental world we’ve yet to completely figure out.

I’m worried about how quickly I lose the ability to connect with people

I think it is a plus that you worry about it. It shows that you’re at least not antisocial. :) You just have to figure out a way to keep your ability switched on “most of the time” instead of “almost never”. I could work on that myself too.

(Gladiators, Old men, libraries, Gym routines….weird)

Haha, that made me giggle… I can picture images in my mind so quickly… Ehh.

]]> By: Alabaster Crippens http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/2008/05/10/note-to-self-and-altered-perceptions-of-reality/#comment-1393 Alabaster Crippens Mon, 12 May 2008 18:39:21 +0000 http://crazyasuka.wordpress.com/?p=281#comment-1393 I'm trying to work out how to say this, and I can't. Basically, I think your note to self may have helped me unconsciously today. The weekend was a rollercoaster, mostly due to my misuse of toxins and the attempted bodily recovery. Some things make your liver hurt, and some things just make you feel regret. Anyway, I was down and anxious yesterday. Really down. Really anxious. Couldn't sleep until about five, had weird, weird dreams (Gladiators, Old men, libraries, Gym routines....weird) that meant I woke up for work feeling worse than I'd been before. I was four hours late for work (I'm really pushing it now...someone's gonna notice and I'm gonna get in trouble) because it took me that long to get over the mental barriers. But I did, and at work, I realised afterwards, I'd actually been mostly productive all day. Had at least one genuine connecting experience with a friend (I'm worried about how quickly I lose the ability to connect with people...it's my whole fucking life and sometimes it's just not there. I can almost always talk...but there's something missing). Anyway, I was walking home, and I realised I felt alright. The air was right, I've got lots of bullshit ahead of me...but it suddenly wasn't this big insurmountable thing. It was just me forgetting how I deal with things. Anyway. I read your note for the second time on sitting back down at home. And I think it might have something to do with it. Not sure where I'm going, or where I've been. But here I am. I’m trying to work out how to say this, and I can’t.

Basically, I think your note to self may have helped me unconsciously today.

The weekend was a rollercoaster, mostly due to my misuse of toxins and the attempted bodily recovery. Some things make your liver hurt, and some things just make you feel regret.

Anyway, I was down and anxious yesterday. Really down. Really anxious. Couldn’t sleep until about five, had weird, weird dreams (Gladiators, Old men, libraries, Gym routines….weird) that meant I woke up for work feeling worse than I’d been before.

I was four hours late for work (I’m really pushing it now…someone’s gonna notice and I’m gonna get in trouble) because it took me that long to get over the mental barriers.

But I did, and at work, I realised afterwards, I’d actually been mostly productive all day. Had at least one genuine connecting experience with a friend (I’m worried about how quickly I lose the ability to connect with people…it’s my whole fucking life and sometimes it’s just not there. I can almost always talk…but there’s something missing).

Anyway, I was walking home, and I realised I felt alright. The air was right, I’ve got lots of bullshit ahead of me…but it suddenly wasn’t this big insurmountable thing. It was just me forgetting how I deal with things.

Anyway. I read your note for the second time on sitting back down at home. And I think it might have something to do with it.

Not sure where I’m going, or where I’ve been.

But here I am.

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